Paul was looking at the blog tonight right before we went to bed and I noticed my pregnancy ticker with that floating baby in it says I am 30 weeks along. I only have 10 weeks left... IF I go the full 40 weeks. It got me thinking, which I do an awful lot of lately, at night... when I am supposed to be sleeping...
Do we have all the paperwork and everything ready for whatever we have to do to have the baby living here in Saudi Arabia? I still need to call that lady and get a tour of the hospital/OB area so I know where I will be going and what to expect! MAN I hope I pass that stupid 3 hour glucose tolerance test on Sunday. I am so worried about that. I haven't touched the new baby's room or any of the bins full of Madeline's old clothes. I have no new baby stuff ready. What kind of baby stuff do I need? I need to sterilize the breast pump. What if this baby doesn't nurse as beautifully and easily as Mads did? Should we have taken some refresher birthing classes? I mean, I can look stuff up on the internet, but what if I forget how to breath? Madeline's birth was so exciting and easy, so planned, so induced! I was so totally drugged up I didn't care and pushing was not painful at all... but do I want that this time? Do I want all those drugs? Will I even have a choice if I go into labor? Will I actually go into labor with this baby? I have never "gone into" labor before. Will I know? I need a watch. I'm starting to have issues with hemarrhoids and constipation now... will my colon turn inside out when I push like that lady's did in that blog post I read the other day? Where is Madeline going to go when we go into labor? I don't have an overnight bag ready for her or anything... I don't have an overnight bag ready for myself either! I need to take water... women here tell me to take water because they are short staffed and sometimes it takes them a while to get to you. What in the hell are we going to name this baby?? When will this damn cough go away so I can stop peeing my pants? I really need to finish Madeline's halloween costume. Should I buy a turkey? We need a Christmas tree!! I have heartburn... I need a TUMs...
This is just the tip of the iceberg folks. I guess I should try to sleep. I have to pee.
2 comments:
I so know what you are talking about. This baby making business is nerve racking and scary. At least you have had one baby already. Since this is my first I have no clue what to expect. But I have all of the same exact fears and worries as you, plus some that you may have missed. Like for instance I want through a phase where hermaphroditism was a concern. Then there was the what if this is just a hysterical pregnancy phase followed by the what if I am going to be a terrible mother time. I pretty much stopped reading the books and the internet because it just seems to make things worse. It seems that in this case ignorance is bliss and the more I learn the more terrified I become. I have a great love affair with Tums and Mylanta. I alternate them so I feel like I am not abusing one over the other. Oh what fun! Good luck with everything and I hope that your labor is as smooth as your first one.
Good luck with EVERYTHING! Don't STRESS! All a baby really needs is love, really I mean that! You guys will do fine. Everything will work out. Take a tums, get some sleep and things won't seem so overwhelming in the morning, and if they do at least you will be rested enough to deal with it. One day at a time.... :)
By the way, I am SOOOOO excited for you! :)
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